I’m happy. I can’t remember a time that I’ve been this happy. It not like a ” my favorite band is in town” or a “  that hotty winked at me” happy. I have inter-happiness. It’s a happy that starts at the bottom of my feet to the ends at my split ends. It’s not a feeling that you get everyday. My heart is overflowing with warm-bubbling feeling. It’s not love, it’s not lust, it’s happiness. I’ve think that I’ve probably said happy a thousand times today but I don’t care. I’m seriously crying with tears of joy. This is one of the best feeling I’ve ever had. Self-happiness is the better than sex, drugs, t.v etc. Right now, I feel that no matter happens, I’ll be okay. Today God has blessed me with the best gift that anyone can ever have, inter-happiness:)

her mouth looks like a asshole

I most be a special kind of stupid because I have the worst taste in BOYS( get your mind out of the gutter, I’m talking about childish high school guys because I REFUSE to call them men). I just keep liking stupid guys that are totally douchebags. I’m done with hoping that ” this one is different”, ” he’s just acting silly” or ” he’s just having a bad day”. I’m not the type of person that always have to be in a relationship, but I am the type of person that like “liking” people. I like to bubbly feeling you get when you see someone you care about. I like smiling whenever he passes by. Having a party in your head when he says your name. But now more. I can’t continue this. I need to retire my collections of tools that’s causing non-need drama in my life. I done, no more; I’m too awesome to deal with this.